C.E.L.

I suppose I can relate to all of those fictional characters that are afraid of themselves and what they may end up doing when they lose control. They tend to always be in love with someone and for some reason can never seem to have them(either they won't let them close, the person loves another, etc.).  Zero from Vampire Knight, Chise from Saikano, Goku from Saiyuki, Naruto from Naruto, Gaara from Naruto, Fai from Tsubasa Reservoir Chronocles, Robin from Witch Hunter Robin, and so many other anime as well as video game or book characters. I know, I relate best with the anti-hero, but they always seem to go through similar circumstances as myself.

Within this life that I have lived, there has been many an occasion that unexpected things have occurred. Everything in life is unpredictable. That factor will always exist. Life changes, much like the ebb and flow of tides. There is no real constants, only life and then death. Our existence depends on that.

Despite it being inevitable, I still can't help but wonder whether or not I want to welcome the changes that occur. I can't really say whether they are tiresome or whether I'm just afraid of them. Everything changing as it is, it means that there's a big possibility that nothing will remain the same, that I will just be a forgotten chapter in some dusty tomb. I don't fear being forgotten, so please don't get me wrong. My fear is much different than that. What I fear is to vanish and no one care. That's not to say vanish as in run away but still exist. I mean to fade from existence, to be nothing more than a shadow, to just be gone. I fear that daily, because I don't feel as though I have a defined existence. I always feel as though I am about to fade. I know I'm more than likely not the only one, but that doesn't make it any less frightening.

I just wish I knew the means of defining ones existence. Each person has their own definition for that phrase, but which one is true? I have so many questions, but no one willing to give me any answers. Perhaps I'm just thinking too much, but I can't help it. Summer is the time for an idle mind. I should probably stop here. I've spoke far too much of my own mind already. That's not a place I would wish for anyone to have to go.

For those of you who read this, thank you. I appreciate you taking your time to listen to my babblings.

Hey guys, sorry that I've been away for so long. I know, this is kind of silly to write, since I doubt many people honestly pay attention to this thing, but a lot has gone on since I was last here. I feel in love, lost that love(not sure I had theirs to begin with, but oh well), have been stuck in drama filled situation after situation, many of which are still going on. I would go into details, but it's almost 4AM and I'm tired. I just wanted to say that I might be posting more entries here soon, hopefully some interesting or insightful ones. I also wanted to let you know that I've changed, I've grown. I'm a stronger me than I was a little under a year ago. My experiences has aged me, much like someone coming back from war, but I assure you mine are far less traumatizing.

There's not much else for me to write, aside from that I hope you all are having wonderful lives and that you continue to have such. I'll be headed off to bed, so those of you that are asleep, have peaceful dreams. May they take you to the most amazing places, ones that belong where they exist.

What is Love?

This a question that every person asks at least once in a lifetime and yet no one has ever been able to answer it. It's a good question to ponder on. I have to admit that I, too, have pondered on it.
What classifies one thing as love and another as like? Is it the feeling that it gives you? The butterflies in your stomach, the infectious beat of your heart when they are near? Is it the flustered feeling you get when you talk to them, the speechless feeling when you are alone together? Or does any of that really matter? Is it possible to love more than once? Is it possible to love two people at once? The same person twice? Is there really such a thing as soul mates? Mean to be together?
I know that these are insane questions to begin this year with, but a lot of things have been happening here recently that has caused me to wonder heavily on this topic. I was just wondering what everyone else thought on this matter. Just figured that I'd throw it out there. Reply or not, whatever. I hope you have fun reading this and continue to read my notes. I'll be writing.

Have you ever stopped to notice the idiotic squabbles of man? How many times a day, a year have you heard about so and so making 3 million a year complaining about how small of a salary that is? There are people in Kenya and all across other third world countries that don't even make a dollar a year and they are complaining about not having enough money? What kind of sick society have we created? A society of greed built on the foundation of money. Money can make everything better, haven't you heard? It's pathetic how attention starved people act.

Take those big stars for example. To make themselves look like good Samaritans, they flaunt their money and how they use it to "aid those in need", when in truth they are doing it for the ratings. Is there really anyone out there that does help anyone just to truly help? Has society fallen so low that people can't do anything for anyone when there isn't a form of self gain involved? Is this what they are teaching this generation of children?

The world is falling into chaos and ruin and people won't do anything because it will cost them their precious money. What has become of the world? We destroy the ozone for progress, kill animals for sport and fashion. Forests are cut down for expansion and irreplaceable things are being lost to the urge of development. Can't you hear the earth screaming in pain? Don't you see that the acid rain falling down on the cities is the tears of thousands of lives lost?

People claim it's because the government doesn't have the money to pool into such things as helping the planet, let alone third world countries. Would you still say that if you knew that 8 million is spent a year for weapons development. 8 million dollars a year! Rather than save lives in countries less fortunate, they want to make weapons to kill people in countries that cause problems. We could fall into nuclear war when, if they pooled their money into saving lives and the earth, we could be living without all of the fear!

I'm not asking you to convert into vegetarianism or to go out there right now and protest for the earth. I'm not asking for anything but a few minutes in your life. Just use those few minutes that I ask of you to stop and think. Think about the direction this world is putting itself due to greed. Have a seat and think about it. Do you really need all that you have?

I will leave you all with this: Is greed really worth it? When will all of this greed cease? Will that pocket of emptiness ever close within the human's starving heart? I guess these are questions that we'll just have to wait and find out the answers to. Just please, think about it. Don't let greed consume the world and destroy all that we have ever known. Don't let this insatiable appetite for material worth destroy the natural wonders and beauty that is all around you.

In life, there are few things that are undeniably inevitable. Your first of a lot of things as well as your last of almost everything. Life and death bring their own categories on inevitability.
The most ironic part about it all is that people only truly begin to appreciate something when they either know the death of it is near or the death has already come. That's when people get frantic and crazy. They panic if they know it will end soon. They do things that they know are stupid in order to save some time. It's funny how they don't just embrace it.
Sure, I'll sound like an optimist, but it's true. If you think of an ending as a new beginning, can you really see it being as bad as it first appeared? We humans are so wrapped up in the "glory of life" that we can't see the good that comes out of the end of things. I know that death is tragic, but it's a new beginning for the person or thing that the death occurs to.

The death of a person marks a beginning without their guidance. It will be hard and you will miss them, but they would never want you to be sad. Depending on your religious practice of choice, it could mark the beginning of a new journey for them as well, which also means that it should not be a sad occasion.

The death of a relationship marks the beginning of a fresh start without them. It opens new opportunities that you never though existed before. Sure, it's hard, but it happened for some reason or another, right?

The end of a school year signifies a new journey of life, be it further into school or into an independent life. Sure, it's hard for a lot of people and many will be missed, but it had to happen in order for them to be able to continue living.

No matter how you look at it, a death or end just means further life or another beginning. Don't be sad that things change, because they change for reasons. Just have faith in the new beginnings and things will work out eventually. Never forget to keep that smile on your faces.

Have you ever noticed how sad and horrible the world has become now a days? In this day and age, people bully others into thinking lowly of themselves. People put themselves down and wish that they could be something they are not. Not only that, people are regretting things that they have done now more than ever. How many times a day or week do you find yourself thinking "I wish I was..." or "I wish I never did..."?

No one should want to be someone else. As far as they know, that person might wish they were you. For instance, there are people wishing that they could be some celebrity. Pick your own to use as this example. They're all the same to me, so it doesn't matter much. Anyways, people wish they were so rich and famous. Little do they know that with fame comes mental disorders and instability. With being famous comes a lack of privacy and a heightened rate of expectation. When you think of all of that and the stress that comes with it, are you so sure that you wish you were them?

No one should regret the things that they have done. No matter how horrible the act, it is but one of the many building blocks that has made you who you are. To remove one would be to remove a fundamental card from a house of them. I know, it's hard not to regret doing something. You regret the mistakes that you have made or the life changing choices. Well, with each mistake comes a learning experience. You learn and grow from every tumble that you make. If you didn't make the mistakes that you have made, you would be nothing more than an ignorant mass of flesh.

Never wish yourself perfection. Perfection, no matter what anyone says, is unattainable. Outward perfection means inward suffering. To be perfect is to be stupid and boring. I doubt that anyone really wants to be just that, don't you?

I just wrote this note to say that everyone should be proud of who they are. After all, if you weren't yourself then who would you be?

These notes that I have been writing have all basically been about my opinions on things. I do not expect anyone to read them, nor do I expect them to agree with them. They are just things that I have thought deeply about and I want to get it out of my head. This one is no different.

I'm highly disgusted with a certain group of people. Those people are the people that decide to trade their potential for greatness for some cheap thrills and moments of pleasure that won't last beyond the hour that it happens. It sickens me to hear about all of those girls and guys out there that have sex, do drugs and party all night long because it's fun now. They have no consideration of their future, only caring about the pleasures of now. While I am forced to sit back and watch people that I know and care about do this, I'm getting fed up. What is wrong with you people?! When the parties end you'll more than likely end up in lots of scary debt, working at McDonalds and having 3 kids to take care of! Is that the kind of future you want?

There are hundreds of possibilities for every person in the world! It makes me so sad to see people that have a great potential within just throw it away. There are some smart, talented, beautiful people out there just throwing away everything that is going good for them because they want to have fun now. I just want to slap them in the face and make them open their eyes to what they're doing.

Then there are the people that are deep in self destructive behavior and they refuse to see it. That just makes me so furious. They are hurting themselves in more ways than one and then they turn around and yell at their friends when they try to help them. Are you that stupid?! My gosh, it's annoying. I just wish they could open their eyes and see for themselves how horrible the situations they put themselves in really are!

The sad part of all of this is the fact that this actually makes me want to cry more than it makes me want to smack them. It's so horribly sad to see so much potential and possible happiness thrown away for "fun in the moment".

I just wanted to say that I wish all of you the best in life. Please don't turn to things that you don't need and that will only hurt you for a moment's pleasure. Look for the things that will last a lifetime. After all, every single person that is reading this deserves this.

As we all go through life, we must make decisions. With each decision we make, it changes us a little into the person that we are aiming to be. Each success as well as failure paves our way in a special way. For success, it shows us that with hard work you can succeed. For failure, it shows us the importance of trying repeatedly and never giving up.

I do not pity people who give up. If the person is so weak to have given up either before starting or any time at all, they don't deserve sympathy. There are people in the world that never give up, no matter how high the odd are stacked against them. To give up so easily means that you are letting down no one but yourself. To have so little faith in yourself is just plain sad.

As I say that, I do not mean that there you shouldn't know when to give up. There are times when it really is appropriate. There are times when you have to know when you're going too far. A few examples would be if you're criticizing someone. If you go too far with it, even if it is constructively, it could really hurt them deeply. There is a point that you have to give up. Another example is with relationships. If it's hurting you emotionally, physically, or it's tearing apart the life you had before the relationship, it's the farthest thing from healthy. You shouldn't make yourself or the person you're with continue something that is broken beyond repair. As I said, there are times when throwing in the towel is okay, but you shouldn't resort to it the first time something goes wrong.

People who just give up when things get hard or when things go wrong annoy me, to be perfectly honest. They will obviously never learn from their mistakes, and they will never get anywhere in life. I know that I sound really harsh right now and like I'm d@mning them to an eternal place, but I'm being honest. If they give up before they even try, then what was the point in anything they had done to begin with?

This is a bit of a rant, but I just wanted to say that you shouldn't give up. If you always give up before the battle is won how will you ever know your true potential?

Have you ever stopped to think about everything in your life that you have taken for granted? To be honest, I doubt that many have. The only real reason that I have thought about this is because I often find myself deeply thinking about this sort of thing when I can't sleep or I don't really feel like doing much of anything. When I think about all that people take for granted, it makes me sad. There are so many amazing things in life that people experience on a daily basis and they don't even have a second though about it until it is their last. I don't mean to be mean to any seniors in high school, but that is a perfect example.

When you think back to the years that you were in high school or just in school all together, do you ever once remember yourself being grateful that you're in school? In all brutal honesty, I doubt that very many can say that they have.

Take a look around you. What may seem normal or boring to you is nothing more than a distant dream to others. Have you ever taken a walk around somewhere, anywhere, and truly appreciated the beauty that surrounded you? During the spring, did you stop to ponder on the flowers blooming? During the summer, did you ever marvel at how beautiful the cloudless sky is? During the fall, have you truly paid attention to the falling and fallen leaves and find yourself thinking how beautiful they are? During the winter, have you ever noticed how calming and serene the sight of freshly fallen snow is?

I dare not ask how many people can answer yes to those questions. Very few people truly appreciate life and all of its gifts without complaining about the things they find as flaws. When you think about it, can you see how truly sad that is?

Now's for something fun. I dare all of you to open up that little box that you call your mind and look around. I dare you to think about all the things that you're lucky to have. I dare you to turn to the world and look at it with unclouded eyes. With all of these dares, I dare you to appreciate what you have before it's gone. After all, you only live once and you're lucky to be alive. I bet that very few of you, if not none of you, can deny that it's something worth appreciating.

I may be very young, but I've had a lot more experience in my life than most people I know. I'm not going to elaborate, but I'll just let you know that it's true. One of the many major things that I've learned in my 17 years of life is that life goes on. No matter how hard things get or what horrible events occur, life will continue to exist. You could wish for it to not to, but wishing gets you nowhere fast. It's kind of harsh for me to say so, but it's true. I've also learned that if you want to live and be happy, you must be like life in the sense that you must go on. No matter what happens, you need to learn how to pick yourself up and be able to keep walking on whatever path you are on. There's no time for regret in life, so don't let it take time away from you.

Another really large thing that I have learned is that no matter how fast time moves, the moments that you remember will always be timeless to you. Everyone knows how fast time flies. When you look back, you can't believe that so much time has gone by within the blink of an eye. The trick of it is to look back on the things that you enjoyed the most. When you do that, you'll realize how many small or large things occurred within that amount of time and you'll truly see it's value. I'm betting the seniors at any given High School thinking right now, "Wow, I'm a Senior. Where did all that time go?" I bet that if each and every one of them looked back and truly thought about the time that they spent and enjoyed at High School, they would feel that much older and be able to see how long it really has been.

I kind of just wrote this note to say that the time that we've all spent together is precious. Never forget the times that you have shared with the people you care about. I know that I won't. To everyone reading this, I just wanted to say thank you for your time. It's always been a blast hanging around with you guys and I look foreword to spending even more time with each and every one of you in the future.

Don't forget to spend your time wisely.

These are things that people have compiled about what body language in a relationship mean. This isn't necessarily correct, rather, they're people's interpretations of what each thing means. What they mean to me might not be exactly what they mean to you. Anyways, this is yet another piece from my "Boyfriend Guidelines" series. I hope that this one is just about as interesting as the others.

The Meaning of Each Kiss:

-Kiss on the stomach = I'm ready.
-Kiss on the Forehead = I hope we're together forever.
-Kiss/Playful Nibble on the Ear = You're my everything.
-Kiss on the Cheek = We're friends/I'm too shy to kiss your lips.
-Kiss on the Hand = I adore you.
-Kiss on the Neck = We belong together.
-Kiss on the Shoulder = I want you/We're perfect together.
-Kiss on the Lips = I love you.

The Meaning of Each Touch:

-Holding Hands = We definitely like each other/Never leave me alone.
-Slap on the Butt = That's mine.
-Holding on tight = I don't want to let go/Don't ever let me go.
-Looking into each others Eyes = I just plain love you/You mean the world to me.
-Playing with Hair = Tell me you love me.
-Arms around the Waist = I love you too much to let go.
-Laughing while Kissing = I am completely comfortable with you.
-Carrying Like A Princess = I want to protect you.


A Word From The Wise:
Don't ask for a kiss, take one. If you're dating or just plain like each other, thy more than likely would love it as much as you would.


By the way, I just wanted to add something as a finishing note. If you were thinking about someone while you read this, congratulations. You're smitten with them! Whether it's just a crush or it's true love is for you to decide ;] Have a great life and I hope you have enjoyed this installment of "Boyfriend Guidelines". I'll be writing~

The word freedom, much like love, is used like a tissue on the noses of every human. No matter how you look at it, it is just a fairy tale. No matter what anyone says, you're always a slave to something. No one, not even we Americans that use the word freedom as propaganda, knows true freedom. Society makes it that way.

In society, there are levels. If you are poor, you're a slave to your income. It limits you and holds you from many things that others are capable of. If you are rich, you're bound by greed, most often to not. Actors are bound by their audience. Authors are bound by their readers. High School students are bound by their irrational fear of being different and hated. No matter what it is, everyone is bound by something.

No matter where you go, there is no true example of freedom. Freedom would mean no emotions binding us, no bodily needs to appease. Freedom would me no society, no rules, no anything. There is no such thing as true freedom. Anyone who tells you different is trying to sell you something. The reason behind this is simple: true freedom would mean living a life of nothing. So, no matter what nonsense you hear, you will always be a slave to something. If not something outside of you, then you're a slave to yourself.

Yes, this is yet another part from the relationship guideline series. This one, I would have to say, is the shortest and the most specific. It's basically telling you what to do when you either want something or when someone does something. It's directed to both genders, so hopefully I'll get mixed readers. Hopefully all that read this learn from it, enjoy reading it and agree with what's in it. Please, enjoy.

For Dating:
Guys - If you like her, tell her. She probably wants to know and will most likely not make the first move.

For Holding Hands:
Girls - If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
Guys - Grab it if it happens more than once, then look her in the eyes and smile.

For Cuddling:
Girls - When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold.
Guys - Automatically move closer to her when she says she's cold.

For Movies:
Girls - During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder.
Guys - Lift her chin up and kiss her.

For Loving Each Other:
Guys - When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too. As a warning though, absolutely under NO circumstances does you do this unless you are 100% sure that you mean it with every fiber of your being. If you say it and don't mean it, you're an idiot that's deplorable no matter what anyone says.

For When You're Laying Below The Stars:
Girls - When you're both lying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat.
Guys - Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

Thank you for reading, please read again when I have more. For anyone who has complaints or possible additions to this list, please tell me. I'm always willing to fix and expand! ^^

There are many difficult things in life. Love being no exception…But when you pass up a chance at being in love you only hurt yourself, because that's one less chance to be happy. And for happiness...well...love is all you really need.

This is yet another one of my relationship guideline series. I'd have to say that this is more of a guideline for girls rather than guys. I may have given guys a hard time without considering the fact that girls do stupid things in relationships too. So, here's my way of saying sorry to guys and telling those girls that don't know what they are doing wrong how to help themselves. Hopefully this will help them as much as my "Boyfriend Guidelines" may have helped guys. Anyways, enjoy the help, and hopefully it will help you learn something.

Guys don't care if you talk to other guys. Guys don't care if you're friends with other guys, but when you're sitting next to them and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing them…Yeah, it infuriates them. It doesn't help either if you sit there and talk to the guy for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that they're still there.

They don't care if a guy calls or texts you, but at 2 in the morning they do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning. Also, when they tell you you're pretty, beautiful, gorgeous, cute, stunning or whatever, they mean it, and don't tell them they're wrong, because they'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl for a guy is confidence. Don't be mad when they hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood they're in. Smile and say "thank you.

Kiss them when no one's watching. If you kiss them when you know somebody's looking, they'll be more impressed. You don't have to get dressed up for them. If they're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. That makes them not only think you're easy, they lose any respect that they may have had for you. They like you for who you are and not what you are.

Honestly, most guys think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pajamas or their t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up. Don't take everything they say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it and don't get angry easily. Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of them. It's boring, it makes them feel inferior, it hurts their pride and they don't care. You have friends for that. Whatever happened to the words "handsome" & "beautiful"? They'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy" or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand, I'm not saying they wouldn't like those greeting ether. It's just more uncommon and unique, not to mention more respectful of them.

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change. Ditch him as soon as possible. He's a disgrace to the male population. Find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Girls, we all deserve:
Someone who will honor our morals.
Someone who will make us smile when we're at our lowest.
Someone who will care for us even when we make mistakes.
Someone who will love us, no matter how bad we make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look us in the eyes and say "I love you" while actually meaning it.
Oh, and always remember to give the nice guys a chance. They will treat you like the princess you need to be treated like.

I hope that all of you women out there that did read this actually attempted to retain the information that I have just given you. For those who did, congratulations, you've (hopefully) become a little smarter when it comes to relationships. If there are any guys out there, please tell me what you think. If you agree to this list of things and complaints, tell me! If you don't, tell me what's wrong with it and what I can do to fix it. I want and need your input in order to help us girls better understand your ways of thinking. Give me the chance to help fellow girls get a better insight on the male mind. Anyways, I hope you all enjoyed this and thank you for reading.

Love is a like a picture of a heart. It's perfectly symmetrical, representing both people. If they can't understand and listen to each other, then it will distort the picture leaving them both one half short of a whole picture.

To the girls reading this: I hope that you all agree that this list of 45 things is correct. Personally, I do believe that these are all things that every girl wish that their boyfriend would do. This is like the sequel to "Boyfriend Guidelines". The only off thing about this is that 1 is the least important to us and 45 is the most.

To the guys reading this: I hope that, like the "Boyfriend Guidelines" this teaches you a little more about what girls want and gives you a way to better improve your relationship with your significant other. Please read and remember this list. After all, this is kind of a big and important thing. So, for those brave enough to actually learn, please read on...


1. Touch her waist.
2. Talk to her about things that matter to the both of you.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.
6. Hug her tightly.
7. Hold her tightly and tell her that you never want to let her go, but only if you mean it.
8. Laugh with her, but only when you really do mean it. Don't ever hold back laughter, because it'll make her uncomfortable and possibly make her sad. Also, don't laugh at her, because that's a one way ticket to making her cry.
9. Invite her somewhere
10. Let her be with you when you're with your friends.
11. Smile with her, and be sure to try your best to make her smile when she is down.
12. Take pictures with her of you and her.
13. Pull her onto your lap, but only when it's appropriate and when you're sure there won't be any accidental problems. You guys should know precisely what I'm talking about without me being blunt.
14. When she says "I love you more", deny it. Fight
back
15. When her friends say "I love her more than you", deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. It will not only make her happy, it'll make her feel loved beyond belief.
16. Always hug her and say "I love you" when you see her, but only do this if that's really how you feel, because it's meaningless if you don't.
17. Kiss her when she least expects it.
18. Hug her around the waist from behind.
19. Tell her she's beautiful not sexy, because that makes it seem like all you care about is her body and not her mind.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her & mean it!
21. Kiss her on the lips, but only when she's ready.
22. DON'T ask her to buy you stuff. (This varies on the girlfriend, but no matter what you shouldn't actually ask for something. Some girls will never get you anything and if you bring it up they'll feel bad. There are others that buy you stuff or make you things whether you ask or not, even if they have no money at all. Just depends on the person you're dating, really.)
23. Tell her what makes you happy.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Buy her stuff. (I'd have to admit that this one can go either way. Some girls absolutely love being spoiled and having expensive things bought for them. There are others that actually prefer the sentimental things and don't really care much for gifts. It really all depends on the girl you're with.)


Here's the REALLY important stuff!


26. Never lie to her.
27. Never even consider cheating on her.
28. Take her anywhere she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you & even when she doesn't. Just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.
31. Hold her close when she's cold and let her hold you too.
32. When you are alone together, hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek. (It will either give her the hint that you want to kiss her on the lips or it'll make her be all adorable and blush.)
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder. That's when you lean in, tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don't ever tell her to leave, even jokingly or act like you're mad. If she's upset, you comfort her no matter how trivial it seems to you, because it's obviously important to her.
36. When people try to put her down, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart. Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other, grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible
41. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Never tell her you love her unless you truly mean it with all of your heart.


I hope that all of you men out there that did read this actually attempted to retain the information that I have just given you. For those who did, congratulations, you've(hopefully) yet again become a little more smarter when it comes to relationships. Thank you for reading.


Love often seems scary and not many want to try it, but it is understandable why they don't want to. Love really does hurt, like a razor to the face. It stings, yet leaves you with a smile.

I wouldn't change anything. No matter how much I regret something, everything that I have done has made me the person that I am today. If I had taken a different course of action, I don't know who I'd be.

As for the second one, that's hard! Ninjas are f*cking AWESOME, but Pirates are pretty kick @ss too. I can't decide >_<

Yes, I do believe in ghosts. As for me encountering one, I've encountered many. My house is FULL of them. For the non-believers reading this, WHY ARE YOU?! As for the believers, it's true. I've been surrounded by ghosts all of my life.

I suppose that I would ask the person that I love to be my boyfriend without hurting anyone. This sounds like it's easy, but it's not. I have 9 people that want to date me and the one person I like has a girlfriend. Lovely, huh? To ask the person out means to hurt them with confusion and to hurt their girlfriend, whom I don't really know. Not only that, it means to hurt all of the other people that like me, which all happen to be friends. See how complicated it is now? Anyways, that's my one thing.

I suppose writing and being bored. I wouldn't care too much about seeing what changes or the new faces, because that would mainly make me really depressed. I mean, who would want to spend eternity alone and who would want to have to just sit back while everything that you have come to know and love changes or just disappears before your very eyes and you have nothing that you can do about it?